One afternoon I was folding our laundry while Zaidee a 3-year-old was watching TV. She came to me saying Mummy, hold my hands. We were holding hands in my lap and she said to me in my eyes, “Be happy!”
I’m not sure though where did she learn this. I can’t remember telling this to her. I guess she learned it from her preschool and I am so thankful for the teachers for this nice gesture.
I’m not sure why she said this to me. Maybe she saw my serious face while doing my chore. And from time to time I get caught up by her question if I’m happy or sad. Sometimes if I smile or answer that I’m happy she would tell me, “I’m happy for you Ma.” So sweet of her!
I’m so grateful for having my kids who remind me to be happy. Sometimes I am pushed to fake it though for them to not see my sadness. Well, I have read in some blogs that say, Fake it until you make it! 🙂
Another question that blows my mind thrown by my daughter while she was eating. Ma, when are we gonna be rich? Ahhmmm, we are already rich honey! I responded quickly. But why don’t we have big computer? Another question that made me smile. She’s been wishing to have her own computer lately.
I was trying to compose quickly to support my answer to her. Even if it’s hard to explain to an eight-year-old kid that being rich is not only about money and material things. I told her that we are rich because we have each other, we have families, and friends.
“Being rich is to have lots of money so that we can buy more foods and if we have extra foods we can donate them. If we have extra money we can donate them too.” This is how she defines being rich after hearing my side. This makes me feel proud of her for she thinks about sharing what we have even if still sounds that being rich is to have lots of money. ☺
“Ma, are you gonna be a housewife forever?” This is one of the stunning questions of my eldest daughter while we were going to her school one morning. My answers were: “I don’t know”, I’m not sure”, and “Why are you asking?”. Well, to be honest, I really don’t know. And this reminded me of my goals in life or my long term plan.
It’s almost a year now for not having a job. I resigned as Software Test Engineer at Singapore and migrated here at New Zealand. I was five months pregnant when we arrived here and so I decided not to get a job yet. My daily routine was to send my daughter to school and pick her up after. Good thing that the school is just a walking distance but with my big tummy it was tiring sometimes. Some parents offered me a ride but I refused and told them it was my exercise but to be honest, I was just shy. 🙂
Now, we have our new princess. She’s four months old but still, I don’t know yet when to go back to work. Half of my mind is telling to go back to work and half of it is telling me to be a full-time Mom. For me to be worry free, I stop thinking about it and just enjoy what I am now.
The meaning of housewife is broad for me. I am into it without even understanding it fully. But, hey! I don’t think I need to to be qualified as one! My daily experience teaches me to be one. I’m not saying that being a housewife is easy. In fact, I realised that it is the hardest thing that a Mom will do. I cried, I shout, and I laugh with my kids. It may sound crazy, but it’s true and I think I’m still normal being crazy! 🙂 I’ve done bad parenting that made me regret afterwards.
So, to answer the question, Am I gonna be a housewife forever? Still, I don’t know! One thing I know is they wanted me to be with this occupation and they still need me. So, despite those crazy things, I will stay as a housewife for now.